Today - Friday

Well, I have had all week to ponder and think about what I wanted to write on this thing called a blog. Since muse means to be absorbed in ones thoughts, I guess I will put my thoughts in writing for all the world to see...lol

I am finding that at the wonderful age of 56- things are fantastic in my life right now. Some days I have a clear mind-- like yesterday when the sun was shining-- and then today- cant think straight for anything. Yesterday I had an answer for every question and most of the time I was right-- hehe but today-- I cant even remember how to spell my name. I have dropped everything I picked up today. It' s Friday and I should be excited that I have the whole weekend to rest and recuperate from this exhausting week- but already I am dreading Monday-- and all the busy-ness starting ALL over again---- one thing is for sure-- there is NO retirement in my future-- I will have to work right up till the day I go to heaven.

I have to say- that even tho signs of Menopause are all around me-- everywhere I turn- everything I read-- I am bombarded with all the bad things about what it will do- yada yada yada-- the one thing I have noticed most is the weight gain. Being only 5 ft 1/2 inch, 1 pound can look like 10. I just couldnt stand the thought of growing out of my clothes- looking at my fat self in the mirror- sitting and noticing my lap is disappearing-- where did it go?? I finally broke down and bought a bottle of ALLI. Wow - this stuff is amazing. Despite all of the warnings and precautions of "treatment effects" I had that only for one day. I have just finished my 6th week and I have lost 12 lbs. Funny how the self confidence comes back-- and now I dont mind getting on the scale twice a week- Ieven stand straight now on both feet instead of only on one . I actually look at the scale instead of putting my hand over my face and peeking through my fingers. My Dr approved of it as long as I dont stay on more than 3 months.

Funny this thing called menopause.........men pausing to say O wow! No, thats not right-- whatever it is-- its another milestone in my life. I have had several opportunities to listen to my physician and have all of my womanhood yanked out-- but wait-- whoaaaaaaa this is MY womanhood-- this is a part of me-- God made me this way-- and youre NOT taking it away from me........ so for now, I will continue to run my air conditioner in the winter, I will continue to wear summer clothes to work year round, and I will continue to drink ice tea at 10 below zero. To all women out there---Enjoy life to its fullest!!!! Life actually does begin after 50-- ;)